Sleepover at Aunty N's 11 January 2012

It was Hui first sleepover at a friend's home.

I asked " Will you miss me? " Without hesitation, she said " No".

I was suprised and my first thought was 'wow, she is so independent at such young age' and instantly felt the bitter feeling of having to let go.

As if she read my thought, she added "But I love you".

Her best friend, she said.

En's sleepover at D's home 30 June 2011

Hui cried the moment she knew En was going to leave her. She told En not to go as she will miss her.  

As I drove away with Hui, she cried in the car. Inevitably, I felt how terribly I miss En as well. I wonder why my heart ached so much. Is it because I was holding on too strong? En doesn't belong to me. She belongs to herself. I am only her caretaker. I have to learn to let go. And as if with a flip of a switch, I was okay. I have to be, so that En and Hui would be emotionally strong as well. .

I am FREE! 3 December 2010

Friday night. Their second sleepover with their all time favourite walking-toy-aunt-nanny! Aunt L camped with them, in the living room ! Yay, FUN yeah? This time around,  I have no worries of Hui after the successful first sleepover. Maybe, this is a sign I should sign myself up for a 3days 2 nights getaway at Phi Phi Leh. :) This remind me of Leonardo Dicaprio &  "The beach".  It's superb to have a just a night Freeee ! (sheesh such a mean mom I am)  Another mind-detoxed for me. BIG THANKS to 'sister L'. muaakkk

EnHui Sleepover 24 August 2010

Tuesday night.
En called 'ah yi' " Hello, are you coming home early tonight? "

After putting down the phone, she was packing, excitedly going to spend the night with her most favourite 'ah yi' a.k.a walking toy. And Hui followed suit, announcing, "Me too". I told Hui " Mommy won't be there! ". With a reassuringly voice, she replied "Yeah okay".

When I was driving home alone, uncomfortably, thinking if this is real.  " Am I free ? What I shall do? Enough time for a holiday? Where? Haircut (it has been a year or was it more) ? "  But it is already 7pm+. I better not let my guard down. I might need to pick Hui up, when she cries for me.

The whole night, my phone didn't ring ! I wasn't needed ! This is Hui's first sleepover. At age 3 !

'Ah yi' plays amazingly well with En. She is a toy ! A human toy. En has a special bond with her. Now, Hui 's too. I wont be able to play like 'ah yi', totally let her hair down and play ! Shame on me.